Christmas

Walmart is ridiculous! So every year I shop blackfriday. I usually go online instead of freezing in line. Of course this year, most have heard of the employee that was stampeded and killed. I wouldn't doubt it. People are rude and crazy. I tried getting online to buy the items my kids wanted and did what Walmart said they'd do. Sell items online starting at 1am EST. So I tried buying at 11pm, my time, 12 am until 12:45am. Then slept until 4:30am. The site said it was under maintenance. At 5am I could log on but by 5:05am everything said sold out online. I tried getting any item on my list and then checked out with 1 item. But of course, it wouldn't let me check out and threw me back onto the 1st page. So at 5:45am I went to the store itself. I couldn't see any parking around the store or the vacant lot or the Ihop parking lot. So I asked someone walking out without anything how bad it was inside. And it happens it was terrible with no room to move and of course no items left. So I went to the next closest location but the same thing there. One and half to 2 hour lines to check out. So I came back home and tried to check out with the 1 item in my cart, once again. This time it was letting me check out but I decided to use a different card to pay with and by that time it said there wasn't anymore of that item left. SOLD OUT! So I emailed the customer service and they sent me the most lamest reply. I'm sorry you had such a terrible experience and your expectations weren't met. We try to improve our system all the time and hope you'll be able to check out easier next time.
Can you believe it? Well unfortunately I can now!
So I'm out of luck for the good deals and the presents my children want are only about 5% less than regular price, on sale now! Arrrgggghhhhhhhhh!

So other than that, Thanksgiving was great. Jana's family are always so nice and considerate. They really know how to make us feel welcomed and loved. THANKS Jana and Chris!
I was able to go out with a girlfriend of mine the other day. It's been 3 1/2 years to 4 years since I last went out with a friend. That's just too darn long and I really miss having girlfriends. I have a lot of nice acquaintances but no real friend around this area. But my friend that I speak to and watch her kids asked me out the other night. It was really funny, she called and asked me to ask my husband if she could take me on a date. Her family has a tradition each Thanksgiving time they go to the Desert Star playhouse and watch a play. I've been there once before but I have to say this time was GREAT! I think I need to go each Thanksgiving too. The comedy and acting was very enjoyable.
Then we went out to eat at Village Inn. Although it was the only restaurant still open around our house, it was delicious and service was great. The manager gave us so coupons to come back because we were such great customers!:) We talked for 3 hrs with the waiter and manager. Sometimes I wonder why I'm not like my old self when I was very social and loved to go out. I'm more boring now than I have ever been. I really need to get out and be involved in the community. My husband wondered why I came home so late but didn't complain. He goes out all the time.
I'm so thankful for God and our savior. This Christmas will be interesting to see how everyone responds to the economy crisis and the true meaning of Christmas. I think my children have already enjoyed the season. We've been decorating the house together and already started the cooking for goodies. I'm very pleased in how my children are. I love them to pieces. Later for now!

Thanksgiving!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it's already Thanksgiving time. I swear time is flying by way too fast. I still have the stress from last Christmas and to think there's more to come. :) Tanner's birthday was last Friday. He's 8! Now I know time flys because he was my little munchkin just yesterday. So he's decided to get baptized. It's planned for December 27th. I am excited for him, he's been wanting this for a long time. I'm also happy to see how his interest in the church is growing. It's hard when he doesn't always attend and makes a fuss when I tell him he has to go with me. His dad has been excommunicated and I haven't seen any discussion on his part.
For Thanksgiving, we'll be joining Janalyn at her house. Usually we have Scott's side to go to but everyone is out of town. So I called Jana and go figure it was only going to be their family. Now we can enjoy the time together and the kids will definitely be happy.
I don't have anything more to report at this time.

Oh today

Feeling BLUE! Nope. Just love this color and I'm feeling better. That cold definitely has hit our family. Still feel a bit yucky but need to get a job and clean up this house.
So as you can see, I must be back on my pills. Just a fraction but doing better. Hopefully my attitude will keep getting better and my focus more clear. I've already sent in another 5 applications for employment and have a interview on Wednesday. Not much else to report but I can say I'm not really looking forward to the holidays. I just can't grasp how the time flies by.

Still no sleep

No sleepingpony tonight, just sleepy. So I've been surfing the web and found a few cool things I'd like to share.

Same site that the best dad in the world was on is a video about Free hugs. I've posted the site on my page here. It's the freehugscampaign.org and I've research that it started in 2004 but I've just barely found out about it. It's still going on and am inviting everyone to join and get involved in some way. It won't hurt you. I was surprised to see how Utah has had No campaigning done here in happyland. :) You'd think with all the gay rights supporters someone would have wanted to hold a free hugs sign and give hugs out at least for one hour in 4 years. Gee, think what it would have been like if the movement happened before the olympics. Anyhow, everywhere around the world has had some luck but nothing in Utah that has been reported. So I'm gonna try. I need hugs, don't get many 'round here.

So I'm taking my sleepytime tea and going to bed. Promise. Leave a comment and make me feel special thanks.

what's with me saying been a long time

Just realized my titles are lame! It's 1:30am and I'm so tired. I don't think I mention that I'm so sick too. My head is foggy, nose stuffy and runny(how's that work anyways), eyes are teary, throat is soar and swollen, gut is bloated, etc.etc. Can't sleep well but can't stay awake well either. Hungry but food sounds gross. I think you all understand how I'm feeling. So I'm up still and talking nonsense.
Have you ever clicked on next blog when reading on one of your friends sites. Well I've been doing that and then going back to the origianl site. I didn't realize that it just randomly goes to any next blog. I was hoping to get back on a site I was was reading because it was touching to see how ordinary families deal with life. This one family had recently adopted a child from ethiopia and to see the difference in her in 6 months in the US was amazing. She was speaking english in 1st grade better than us children. The family was all white and she very black and the children in the family were spread out in age by at least 5 years each. Anyhow, the mother had commented on how it was exciting to have this little girl be a part of our nations history of President elect Obama and how she can see how she too can have hope for herself being a black child achieving much her in america. I thought at first that the mother was going to give some praise Obama speech because of the huge picture of him on her page but then when I read her post it seemed she may have been for someone other than Obama for president but has seen a positive side to him being president for her newly adopted daughter.
Anyhow, it's nice to be an outsider and sneak a peek into others lives without them knowing it. HEEHEE!

Beware though I've also seen some very unhappy sites too!
CAUTION: DON'T LET CHILDREN GUIDE YOUR MOUSE TO THE NEXT BLOG!

Here's something funny I realized I was saying to my little kitten. His name is Mouse because he's always looked like a mouse and the name fits him. Anyhow, when I'm on the computer he's always nearby watching my every move. He comes and steps on the keyboard and of course, when I'm typing, I have to erase his misstakes, but the funny thing he does is when I'm moving the mouse he attacks my hand.
So today I decided to tell him "Mouse, stop touching the mouse." Which was ironic because of the names. It sounded so funny, in my half mentally challenged way, that I introduced the two. "Mouse, I'd like to introduce you to Mouse and vice versa." NOW you can officially admit me to the looney ward, or funny farm or just tell me to go to bed.

I'm posting some new pics for everyone but don't have energy to give reference to them for now so bear with me. Talk to you soon. Or as I always say, "Been tooooooo long!"

Been 2 long

Sometimes life is just that way.
Are you really interested in what has gone on? Well lots. Lots. But mostly change. Lots of change and through change there's been many emotions. I can't tell you how much I love my Heavenly Father. Awww, God is so sneaky like that. He'll make you stronger if you let him but only if you recognize his hand in all things. I feel so bad for those that haven't realized his power in their life or even been introduced to him. I can only imagine the pain those that have no clue about the teachings of Jesus Christ must feel. I really believe that everyone of us know there is a god but may not know he really is our father.
What a difference that simple fact makes.
Before I get into why all this has come to surface in my life once again let me share with you a link I found on my sister's website that can put things into perspective......http://www.transformationteam.net/video/best_dad.php

This video and song really makes you think and if you'd like to read the story behind it, if you haven't already, you can look it up at http://www.weboflove.org/050917dadtrulycares

THANKS TRICIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're an inspiration to me and I love you so much for your great example.

Some of you may understand what depression and anxiety really is. I mean true physical depression that you can't control because your body doesn't supply the correct seratonin (happy juice) to your body to make you think correctly and not to be counterproductive to yourself(aka self destruct) Up until I was 24 I did not have answers to why I felt the way I did. I went to a doctor and he told me I was depressed and had anxiety. Well duh! I knew that but did I really need medication to help that. He said meds and counseling would help, but of course counseling was out of the question. It was hard enough being labeled "Crazy!" I cried for days. It took months to adjust to the right meds. Zoloft was my life saver. I don't take that lightly. It is my life saver. For many, it can have opposite affects and want them to kill themselves. As for me, if I have at least half the correct dose I can still survive but will suffer from anxiety and just sleep all day. To the point, I have to take 2 anti-depressants to sustain normality.
Our family has more than been struggling financially this year and in the last 2 months our insurance co pays have gone up. So one of my meds cost $80 a month and the other $10. So I got rid of the more expensive and didn't think it would hurt too much but I WAS WRONG! I still can't afford it but know that I need it. I also went off the 10 because the last time I filled it it was 30 and for some reason it's now back to 10. Anyhow, all my bills came tumbling down and my meds were gone. So I figured I'd have to somehow come up with $ for the power and insurance bills first. I asked for help from the bishop and was told that I really needed to be seen by the Dr. and to get back on my meds.
I knew this and wasn't exactly happy that he didn't offer to help pay for anything. Mad and frustrated about everything, not to mention confused, I asked myself "What is the lord trying to teach me?" Strange to think coming from the mind of a psychotic woman wanting to blow her head off at the same time. OF COURSE I WON'T! Like I said I know my symptoms and needs and have been there done that!
Well, the bishop wants Scott to be involved and work out things with me. Me too! But we both can't force him so I was back to square one. CONFUSED! Confusing to you too, well that's the summarization of my ordeal, call me if you want the ramblings on of the whole ordeal.
After multiple fights, arguments, etc. etc. Scott found the funds and we've paid the bills for now and I will receive my zoloft tomorrow. I won't be back to (normal) for at least a week or 2 but at least I won't be as emotional and psychotic.

What I have learned. Going through all of this I came online to pay the bills and to read family stuff and was overcome with love and guidance by the spirit.
Tricia's site had postings about marriage, which was nothing I hadn't already seen, but I actually read and was taught by the spirit why I had to go through this DISASTER!
Hardship can bring happiness.

DID ANY OF THAT MAKE SENSE???

Starting back where my last post was............

I have been looking for a job since the kids went back to school.....they were off track for 2 weeks prior to Halloween and then went back to school. I decided I'd work the elections and was asked to be a poll manager for my precinct. I didn't mind accepting but knew that I'm not the most reliable person, because of my illnesses. So I promised myself that I would make sure nothing else would get in the way of making everything be perfect for SUPER Tuesday. I would get paid the most of all the jobs and of course I could use the $.
Now that it's all done, I will never do that again unless I'm only volunteering because it isn't worth the pay. I could have worked a whole lot less and got paid a small amount less and been better off.
Okay so anyhow, after attending 2 training classes of at least 3 hours each, being available for picking up and dropping off supplies, set up before election day, calling poll workers under me, working with election headquarters to make sure everything was a-ok, performing duties, making sure everyone else was doing their duties correctly, being nice and making sure everyone was comfortable, happy, fed, etc etc etc, IT WENT GREAT! I had 3 hours sleep and was sick for 3 days after.

As for Halloween, I made Christiana's costume and spent multiple hours on it but it sure costs a lot less and looked a lot cuter. She was an evil fairy this year. Tanner was with his dad but was able to attend another ward party a few days earlier with us and his cousin. He was excited to be able to dress up in 3 different costumes this year. He was a pirate, ninja & ghoul. As for Faith she was a good fairy. Each year the girls are the opposite of the other year. So next year Faith will be something evil again and Christiana will be good. As for Tanner, it's always something new.
Our ward always has a trunk or treat following a dinner chili/soup cook-off for the adults to have some fun. I entered 2 things and won for both in different categories. That was cool. Next year, I don't think I'll stress myself with it.
I know I'm a good cook and no one needs to tell me!:)

As I stated last time, we had our mommy cat give birth to a liter of 5 and our dog killed 1. Well they've all grown up and we adopted one out. I miss him terribly. He was our favorite cuddlier and the 1st born. He's doing well and lives in Idaho with Scott's sisters' in laws. They have a large country farm-like home with horses, dogs and cats. I guess he's being spoiled and loves to play with the big dogs.
As for our other babies, no one wants them until they're a little larger because of the other cats in their houses. That scares me because the larger the cats get the less likely anyone will want to adopt them. And I won't want to give them away. The mommy cat got out one morning before a bad storm and we haven't seen her since. That's been 2 1/2 weeks ago. I've tried looking for her but nope!
So I now have 1 dog, 1 grumpy old cat, 3 kittens, 1hampster, 20 fish, 3 children, 1 husband and lots of messes to clean up after!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Okay so I'm gonna take a break for now I'll be back.